I haven't been writing for a long time. too many things kept me busy. The new dogs, Pluto, My work. everything changes every day.
Yesterday it has been 2 months since Pluto has gone, as stupid as it may sound for some of the people, I can't get over it. I am thinking about it ALL the time. I miss him like I've never missed anyone in my life. I never thought he took such a big part of me. Last night I woke up around 03:30AM cause I thought I heard him barking, I came out of the window to see if it's him and to call him but then I realized it was Steve. 
I can't deal with it anymore.
The 2 new puppies are cute but it's crazy. I am cleaning after them 24*7 by all means. I barely sleep. my sleep became so weak and poor and that makes me tired and moody all day.
Today a new dog is coming for fostering until I will find a good place for her. I hope it's not going to last long because my dad is going to kill me.
other than that, work is pretty depressing, I am writing documents all day, and to be honest, I hate it. I hate the feeling that I am not giving 100% of me at work. (That's because I can't sit 10 hours a day and write document it never was easy for me, and apparently it will never be).
I need to leave Holmes place, I actually hate this place. and today I am going to Bikram Yoga.
The puppies:
I met him yesterday after almost 4 months that I haven't seen him. I was pretty amazed when he started talking about the he's feeling from the last time we met, I didn't expect it. he said he's sorry and he felt bad about they way he was. but I wasn't mad about it. I was mad about myself and my behavior. weird. weird how Iwas thinking about him for long time and when I saw him last night at the cheers, I didn't take his number.
I guess destiny is all around, they way our meetings happens. i hope it's for good.
At work I had some issues but it all seems to be ok and the way wanted it to be. I signed the new contract and I am truly happy there. I love the people I work with, I love the work itself. everything is just good.
I bought some fancy shmency speakers and they are pretty =P
After 7 weeks with the mac I am so happy with it. It's easy to use. I 've got everything I need in it. fast. when I bought it I was a bit cared "what if" but it seens to be just perfect for me 
My next purchase will be Canon 40D. (I need to get out of my house soon. I need to save money!).
Hedgehog is the law!
There's one thing I don't know how and I can't deal with. Ignorance. whenever I get to face it, it breaks me and kills me. It really is the worst thing someone can experience.
Other than that. I thought killing myself with work will drown these feelings. apparently not.
Pfff. I want to disappear.
