Your laugh, your eyes, your hands… it's all the same.
it's not a secret I've been terribly scared of the alarms . since the war in the south started, I came up north with an insecurity feeling that something is going to happen. The problem was that I couldn't fall a sleep, every strange sound froze my hear. and still, a week after the alarms in the north, it keeps driving me insane. I barely sleep, every lil noise wakes me up. it takes me hours to fall a sleep. and I am now afraid being alone more than ever before.
I keep the first 20 seconds from the same morning running in my head. (without wanting it of course). and now I am heading a stressful month with all the exams, and I seriously don't know how to handle it.
so I wanted to go to sleep and instead I find myself bitching here. anything but turning the lights off.
This is how it's going to to be in the next 3 years?
Every time I am gonna pass next to this hotel I'll think about the other night in the bar?
it can't be like that 
It's not like anything I have ever been to before.
While I was watching TV, I was trying to figure out, since when the extrovert one became the normal and positive, and the introverted is shameful.
It almost seems like it's OK being ignorant, noisy, vulgar etc, is OK. That talking without thinking or saying whatever on your mind, without considering the consequence, or it's affect.
How sad is the fact that this is what we became.
"I never once heard you say,
I need you,
I don't need you.
I need you,
I don't need you.
and all of that jiving around."
i wanted to write something else..
but that's what came.
I was wondering what I am going to write about us as a society, if the big-brother would have ended the other way.
Saw some pictures of new york city and realized how I miss this the city.
My heart was actually pinched when I saw it.
Especially in this time of the year, the city is even MORE stunning\shocking\amazing\hypnotizing (whatever you choose).
it's been a year since I've been there. Can't wait to be there again.
I can't find my pictures from back then, I think I haven't uploaded it to my flickr.
it's been the second week here, and my first weekend. Slowly, I am getting used to the north, it's very different from the center. much more quite, very different vibes. everything is easier.
MY schedule is crazy, I am studying 8-122 hours a day that totally kills me, I hope I'll be able to keep on track. and I won't loose it.I got the chance to meet a lot of new people which is always fun. a bit difficult with the roommates, but it's something I was expecting. I am constantly tired lately, probably related to the low iron levels I've got. I know I should take care about it..
I had a great weekend, Keren came over, we traveled a lot around the area, and saw lots of cool animals. last night we cooked dinner and drank some wine, but were too lazy to go out, so we stayed in. 
I think I like this place 
Thursday was my last day at work. I did "tofes tiulim" and after work, went to the Inga. I couldn't believe it.. I had a lot of fun. and all the people I love came to celebrate with me. I got REALLY nice presents, and it was actually things I really like. It is sad that I have to live, I met there people that I truly love, and found lots interesting, funny friends.
I spent Friday at home most of the day, then I went to visit my grandfather. When I came back, I felt kinda lonely and needed a friend to be with. so I called Ori, and we both went out for a couple of drinks. I love talking and listening to him. I think he's smart and extremely funny. he always know what say and says it right. I am thankful I had the chance to meet him and have him next to me. and he was actually the only person I wanted to see last night.
Now I am in K8, I brought all of my stuff in here (tho I still have few things in my car). I am terribly excited from the big day tomorrow. I am sure it'll be lots of fun. Good luck to all of the students out ther 
