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Things are finally getting better, 

All The pieces fit the picture as I always wanted to see it.

Some of you have helped me a lot :) 

I just want to keep it that way

(3 days for that, 10 days for another)… 

Too bad that's the only side I can see,
Wish we could get closer.

That's the view from Kibbutz Misgav Am (where I'll be living in less than a month) over the border with Lebanon.

Never thought I'd curse the day I met him,

Never Thought I'd curse the day she met him.

I'll never hurt this,

Will never ruin something I love.

"One just escapes, one's left inside the well." 

I hate this well.

Ups and downs took me to other places,

O> "what's missing in your life right now?"

Me> "I can deal with a lot of things, but I can't give up the serenity, calm, peace, tranquillity".

where am I? I miss the kid I used to be. 

I can't control nor deal with it anymore. where ever I am I don't feel safe.
It makes me tired. and powerless.
Is it just fear? or may it's anxiety?
I am mentally tired.

F.E.A.R. (You got the fear)
 

no. I really mean it.

you're a  loser.

the biggest one i've ever seen. 

it's not a secret I've been terribly scared of the alarms . since the war in the south started, I came up north with an insecurity feeling that something is going to happen. The problem was that I couldn't fall a sleep, every strange sound froze my hear. and still, a week after the alarms in the north, it keeps driving me insane. I barely sleep, every lil noise wakes me up. it takes me hours to fall a sleep. and I am now afraid being alone more than ever before.

I keep the first 20 seconds from the same morning running in my head. (without wanting it of course).  and now I am heading a stressful month with all the exams, and I seriously don't know how to handle it.

so I wanted to go to sleep and instead I find myself bitching here. anything but turning the lights off.

Saw some pictures of new york city and realized how I miss this the city.
My heart was actually pinched when I saw it.
Especially in this time of the year, the city is even MORE stunning\shocking\amazing\hypnotizing (whatever you choose).

it's been a year since I've been there. Can't wait to be there again.

I can't find my pictures from back then, I think I haven't uploaded it to my flickr.