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it's just that silly, crappy, annoying phase i am going thru.
most of the things are falling apart.
and zero efforts on controlling my life.
it's a competitive world. and I'm out of the game.
Ups and downs took me to other places,
Trying to find it, I just realized I can't fight it.
so I am waiting for it to be over.
They think I am wonder woman.
Saving the world at nights,
they just don't know,
That I wish I could at least save myself.
from myself.
Remember where were you 1000 days ago?
he was free.
Do you remember what you've been doing in the past 999 days?
he was sitting in a dark place. alone. away from everything he ever knew.
for 1000 days he's fading.
We're still waiting. before he totally fades away.
It's not like anything I have ever been to before.
You're sleeping in your own bed, it's all warm and cuddly in the middle of the freezing winter here (YES. for me it's freezing). suddenly there's this weird sound, in the next few second you're unable to recognize it. it took me around 5 seconds to understand, this is the going up and down alarm they are talking about.
If I would have wanted to write a script about it, the pause will be here. and the next scene is me running like CRAZY calling to my roommates, with my pyjamas and no shoes on (remember, it's verrryy cold out there) to the door, down the stairs, to a lower floor.
At least I could remember this in that craziness fear I was in, in those 60 seconds or more, of alarm.
Everything I thought I'd do in that moment disappeared. all the things that mattered before, dwarfed in compression to the fear I was experiencing, and the need for running for a shelter. I didn't care who sees me like that or if I took my cell phone or the laptop, which contains my life. (seriously).
the next few moments I stood in the middle of the first floor with some neighbors, I said "stood" but I could barely stand there, I didn't feel my legs, all I felt was my heart beating out like double bass machine. and my legs were shaking, and I started to cry, trying to call my mother from my roommate's cell phone, to let her know that I am somehow "OK", I couldn't call, made like 5 mistakes in the numbers until I dialed the right number.
In the first time in my adult life I experienced this situation, the last time was in the gulf war, but it was too long ago. I can try to understand now a bit of what's like living it for 8 years. you just don't get used to it, no matter what. you can't get used to the sound of these sirens.
My heart is with the residents of the south, fully and truly. and of course, with IDF soldiers as well..
May the force be with you and we'll all know better days.
I wish you all happy new year.
may this year be much better than the last.
May this war over, the south will be quiet and Gilad Shalit will be back.
I wish I will find my dog Pluto.
I wish I will do things I haven't done last year. ♥
♣ Started the year in NYC
♣ Promoted
♣ Had stupid fights
♣ Started school
♣ Saw some friends getting married
♣ Left home for the second time
♣ Left work
♣ Gained weight
♣ Moved up north
♣ Stabilized my bank account
♣ Visited a new country (actually 2).
♣ Bought too many clothes \ cosmetics \ accessories
♣ Fulfilled some dreams
♣ Forgot other dreams.
♣ Stopped therapy.
♣ Bleached my hair
♣ Didn't take enough photos
♣ Earned some truly new friend.
♣ Lost some other friends.
♣ Didn't fall in love.
♣ Didn't fall in love.
♣ Adopted new pets.
♣ Moved to Mac. totally.
♣ Moved to Mac. totally.
Lost Pluto 
Ho how I missed this city.
the people, the vibe, the coffee shops, the streets, the traffics. yes, even that.
Me and Lalinka decided to drive to the holy city for a fun day.
we didn't have a special plan but I wanted to show her the places I love. so we first went to the German Colony, where I used to live. I showed her my house (from outside of course), and then we went to Smadar coffee in the Smadar cinema. it's a small and lovely coffee shop, which I used to spend my Friday mornings there. something in this place is so magical, always warm and cosy. we ordered a breakfast together. which left my tongue with a black mark:
after that we went to the city and walked around, it was a cold and rainy day, just as I love the city. I really wanted to visit the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, but thinking of getting in to the Christian Quarter that day was a bit crazy. we finished our walk in Babet, a tiny place for belgian waffles. THE BEST BELGIAN WAFFLEs.
That's about it, I wanted to stay till the evening and to meet some friends, but didn't have the chance. may be next time.
yes yes, I know. I'm better with dark hair.
and just for the record, blondes don't enjoy better.
