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אתמול בלילה פתאום תקף אותי הזכרון של הכאבים מהניתוח, פתאום נזכרתי ברגעי ההרדמה בעודי מנסה לשכנע את המרדים שהחומר הרדמה לא משפיע עלי והדבר הבא שאני זוכרת זה חדר התאוששות לאחר ההרדמה. הכבדות של הגוף, התחושה שמישהו עירבב את כל האיברים בבטן, את כל הלחץ האדיר על הכתפיים.

שבועיים אחרי, כבר אין כאבים, אני יכולה לישון על הבטן (חלקית) ובסה"כ מרגישה טוב. אז היה שבוע של סחרחורות והתעלפויות, אבל נראה לי שזה מאחורי.  
 
הניתוח הצליח, אני שמחה. :) 

That's it, the choice has been made, and everything is ready.

I am walking on this alleyway thru what I chose, and surrounded by those I love.
It's actually hard for me to believe I am finally there (here!),
But this new beginning will lead me to better days,
In few hours, I'll get what I always wanted.
 
Just wish me luck…
<3  

Things are finally getting better, 

All The pieces fit the picture as I always wanted to see it.

Some of you have helped me a lot :) 

I just want to keep it that way :)

(3 days for that, 10 days for another)… 

I wanna scream,

Finally things are getting better,

Finally I live in a place that I love, I am surrounded by people I love.

 I am about to have the biggest change (and I am going to write everything about it, once I am there).

School started few days ago, and it seems that I love this year, much more interesting courses. 

all in all, I am getting better after a long time I was down.

I'm thanking for all that.

I am just tired. It's been a rough week for many reasons.

The only thing I don't want to go thru right now, is another game. 

I miss someone special.

That's why it is never getting anywhere. I just can't deal with.

I am just tired of running into dead ends.

What a gloomy night it is. 

One of the most beautiful and powerful songs ever written…

 Once divided…nothing left to subtract…
Some words when spoken…cant be taken back…
Walks on his own…with thoughts he cant help thinking…
Futures above…but in the past hes slow and sinking…
Caught a bolt a lightnin…cursed the day he let it go…

Nothingman…
Isnt it something? 
Nothingman…

She once believed…in every story he had to tell…
One day she stiffened…took the other side…
Empty stares…from each corner of a shared prison cell…
One just escapes…ones left inside the well…
And he who forgets…will be destined to remember

..Nothingman… Isnt it something?
Nothingman…Oh,
she dont want him…
Oh, she wont feed him…after hes flown away…
Oh, into the sun…ah, into the sun…

You woke up on your bad side, everything slips out of your hands, can't bring yourself to do anything.
Basically, in these days,whatever can go wrong, goes wrong.
well, this is my week.

 "I sure don't mind a change
But I fell on black days
How would I know
That this could be my fate".. -Soundgarden.

"and then you realize that it wasn't what you wanted after all"….

An end of an era?
Or the beginning of something new?

 Whaever it is, Thank you for what it was….

Never thought I'd curse the day I met him,

Never Thought I'd curse the day she met him.

I'll never hurt this,

Will never ruin something I love.

"One just escapes, one's left inside the well." 

I hate this well.