I am happy with the things that happened lately. I love the people around me, I love my job, I'm actually enjoying it. the only thing I really want now, is that loneliness feeling to disappear.
"no one ever told you that forever feels like home".
Archive for the ‘Feelings’ Category
I haven't been writing for a long time. too many things kept me busy. The new dogs, Pluto, My work. everything changes every day.
Yesterday it has been 2 months since Pluto has gone, as stupid as it may sound for some of the people, I can't get over it. I am thinking about it ALL the time. I miss him like I've never missed anyone in my life. I never thought he took such a big part of me. Last night I woke up around 03:30AM cause I thought I heard him barking, I came out of the window to see if it's him and to call him but then I realized it was Steve. 
I can't deal with it anymore.
The 2 new puppies are cute but it's crazy. I am cleaning after them 24*7 by all means. I barely sleep. my sleep became so weak and poor and that makes me tired and moody all day.
Today a new dog is coming for fostering until I will find a good place for her. I hope it's not going to last long because my dad is going to kill me.
other than that, work is pretty depressing, I am writing documents all day, and to be honest, I hate it. I hate the feeling that I am not giving 100% of me at work. (That's because I can't sit 10 hours a day and write document it never was easy for me, and apparently it will never be).
I need to leave Holmes place, I actually hate this place. and today I am going to Bikram Yoga.
The puppies:
Once again I realize how everything can turn around and people will shit on you. (even your best friend).
RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU.
