Exactly one year ago, I've lost my best friend.
One year that I haven't stopped loving him, missing him, dreaming of him for a second.
He was the most faithful creature I have ever met.
And for the few years I got the chance to be with him, I should thankful for the rest of my life.
You can learn a lot. even from a dog.
Wherever you are, I just hope that you're treated as you should. like a king.
<3
This week was literally crazy. In my 24.5 years, I've never studied as mush as I did this week, From organic chemistry, to fishes, to unorganic chemistry, via cell biology. wow. I felt like I am going to collapse. Who said a BSc in biotechnology is going to be easy?
On Sunday I had lab experiment which I didn't take part in. I definitely don't want to take any part in experiment that include animal. I don't think it's necessary in this part of my studies, I don't think it's necessary to "experience" it now. They can show us a video of these experiments or computerized experiments.
I stayed the weekend up north and as it seems, I am going to spend here a lot of time in the near future. In two wees I'll start my exams and I won't have time to breathe for sure. This weekend I stayed at home all weekend, shared my time between TV, internet, reading, looking for some articles regarding my work on HPV (haven't found anything interesting yet). and of course, my new lover, Dexter. the people who know me, know how I barely watch TV nor allegiance to any series. But this one really kept me busy.
I watched 10 episodes:| that's crazy.
I was all alone in the apartment but needed it more than ever, it was warm and quiet, I really wanted to go biking around today, but didn't have the chance to stop being a couch potato. but hey, I blame dexter for that. BTW, not that the brring, clubing scene is that fun here. I'd rather have the night life of Tel Aviv, with all the respest to where I live know. I kinda wanted to do something, but that something doesn't exist here I guess. The silence here can drive you to insanity. sometimes I love it. sometimes I amm scared by it.
I cooked for my self, bought a bottle of wine but didn't have the chance to open it, I made chicken curry. the best chicken curry ever! with white rice. I found out I really build a name of a cooker among my friends here, it is fun, I love cooking for them, and it flatters when they talk about my cooking 
I terribly miss my dogs, and I miss my parents and some friends.
Hope this week will be a bit easier.
How do you keep your memories of something that is no longer with you?
obviously, time is not helping here. as time's passing by, we tend to forget, even the good memories.
and lately I try not to forget all the lil things of Pluto. I terribly miss him. and extremely missing his behavior and even the little things he used to do back then that used to drive me crazy, but now I miss it. and I tend to forget,
too bad he's not here to remind me. even the things I didn't like 
Today it's been exactly 10 monthes. There are not enough words to describe how much I miss him
Why is it so damn cold in here?
Sorry little angel that I couldn't give you anything I wanted to. I am sorry that now you're on your own exposed to all the dangers out there. I AM SO SORRY. and I am full of regret but I also feel that it drives me insane, and taking from me and the people surround me a lot of efforts that we can't give right now.
I just hope that you'll find a better place and that you'll have everything I couldn't give you.
I am deeply, truly, sorry. :(
I haven't been writing for a long time. too many things kept me busy. The new dogs, Pluto, My work. everything changes every day.
Yesterday it has been 2 months since Pluto has gone, as stupid as it may sound for some of the people, I can't get over it. I am thinking about it ALL the time. I miss him like I've never missed anyone in my life. I never thought he took such a big part of me. Last night I woke up around 03:30AM cause I thought I heard him barking, I came out of the window to see if it's him and to call him but then I realized it was Steve.
I can't deal with it anymore.
The 2 new puppies are cute but it's crazy. I am cleaning after them 24*7 by all means. I barely sleep. my sleep became so weak and poor and that makes me tired and moody all day.
Today a new dog is coming for fostering until I will find a good place for her. I hope it's not going to last long because my dad is going to kill me.
other than that, work is pretty depressing, I am writing documents all day, and to be honest, I hate it. I hate the feeling that I am not giving 100% of me at work. (That's because I can't sit 10 hours a day and write document it never was easy for me, and apparently it will never be).
I need to leave Holmes place, I actually hate this place. and today I am going to Bikram Yoga.
The puppies:
I am feeling this discomfort, worrying all the time. I barely sleep, I work a LOT. The sadness and the yearning to see him again kills me.
I think I am being punished for something, whatever it is.
I am Truly, Deeply, SORRY.
and I am losing it. I can't deal with it anymore
Is the worst part in the story. I can't stand thefact that I don't know where he is and worse that I don't know if he's ok or not. Whateverit is, I hopehe is ok and that nothing bad happened to him. but with the time passing, the chances that he will come back are low
I miss playing with him. I miss the his 'smile' and his tail waving and hiting everything around, I miss his smell, I miss when he comes in the morning to see if everything is ok and he puts his head on my bed.
I can't enjoy anything and can not concentrate in anything not knowing what his condition.
