Sorry little angel that I couldn't give you anything I wanted to. I am sorry that now you're on your own exposed to all the dangers out there. I AM SO SORRY. and I am full of regret but I also feel that it drives me insane, and taking from me and the people surround me a lot of efforts that we can't give right now.
I just hope that you'll find a better place and that you'll have everything I couldn't give you.
I am deeply, truly, sorry. :(
I haven't been writing for a long time. too many things kept me busy. The new dogs, Pluto, My work. everything changes every day.
Yesterday it has been 2 months since Pluto has gone, as stupid as it may sound for some of the people, I can't get over it. I am thinking about it ALL the time. I miss him like I've never missed anyone in my life. I never thought he took such a big part of me. Last night I woke up around 03:30AM cause I thought I heard him barking, I came out of the window to see if it's him and to call him but then I realized it was Steve. 
I can't deal with it anymore.
The 2 new puppies are cute but it's crazy. I am cleaning after them 24*7 by all means. I barely sleep. my sleep became so weak and poor and that makes me tired and moody all day.
Today a new dog is coming for fostering until I will find a good place for her. I hope it's not going to last long because my dad is going to kill me.
other than that, work is pretty depressing, I am writing documents all day, and to be honest, I hate it. I hate the feeling that I am not giving 100% of me at work. (That's because I can't sit 10 hours a day and write document it never was easy for me, and apparently it will never be).
I need to leave Holmes place, I actually hate this place. and today I am going to Bikram Yoga.
The puppies:
