so does my feeling change.
Archive for the ‘Depression’ Category
She's falling for those who keep her away from reality, does she like it? She's not sure.
But it helps her to hide the truth, to run away from the things she's afraid of. Afraid of hearing "no" again. This negative sound makes her sick.
And thats how the story goes, she promises to herself that it won't happen again, but she can't face the truth neither. so we're there again, in the place we're so afraid of, taking the same turn we promised we won't turn to ever again.
it is sad.
* the weekend is over tomorrow is the company trip to Jerusalem. I am so tired of thinking.
* I had a nice family dinner tonight in Fabiana, Italian restaurant in Tel Aviv.
* Three nights in a row @ cheers and I never get tired. last night was extremely fun with Shirley, and Nedev was the bartender. on Thursday I went there with Daniel, we arrived around 02:45 AM and it felt like home. * it came to me that when my father was half anesthetized on his bypass surgery, I was in his mind and all he was thinking was me. it just strengthening my opinion about our relationship 
* I am tired.
* I like taking pictures with the new cellphone.
* my nephew is the cutest.
* and I kept thinking about the guy all the weekend. :S
16:00
17:00
it did pinch my heart.
Why ho, why?
First day at work was ok, I've got a lot of things to study and I really need to refresh my memory regarding to all the things I forgot already after long time that I havn't deal with networks and stuff. all in all it seems like a good place for me, really close to where I live, I got the conditions I wanted, cool and young team, though it seems to me that one of the interviewers that interview me there didn't really want me in this job, but, I guess it's his problem. (I get really bad vibes from him). additionally it's nice knowing someone in the workplace before you start. he gives me some confidence.
On Sunday there is a company event, which is usually nice but I don't know the people there yet so I am going to feel a little left out. alas!!
The weekend was kinda quiet for me, I didn't go out at all, made my depression levels rise a bit higher, but maybe its good to stay at home once in a while. (too bad it drives me crazy).
It's funny how whenever you need someone or want someone to be around, you feel so lonely. I guess drowning in work in the next few weeks will make me forget (at least for half of the day) about all these things that bother me.
Have a good week.
I feel sick. I can't fall asleep.
nausea and sadness.
make me disappear.
we talked
you called
you came
*E*
you disappeared.
I ran away today. I ran away cause I didn't want them to see me.
Not like this.
May be I am ashamed, but it's not the first time. and they were those I shouldn't have cared about.
Actually, I am ashamed of it.
I am feeling very warm right now
Please dont disappear
I am spacing out with you
You are the most beautiful entity that Ive ever dreamed of
At night I will protect you in your dreams
I will be your angel
You worry so much about not having enough time together
It makes no difference to me
I would be happy with just one minute in your arms
Lets have an extended play together
Youre telling me that we live to far to love each other
But your love can stretch further than you and I can see
So how does it make you feel?
