so many things on my mind.
but nothing comes out.
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this endless night.
with endless thoughts.
drowning in this endless sea of loneliness.
Sorry little angel that I couldn't give you anything I wanted to. I am sorry that now you're on your own exposed to all the dangers out there. I AM SO SORRY. and I am full of regret but I also feel that it drives me insane, and taking from me and the people surround me a lot of efforts that we can't give right now.
I just hope that you'll find a better place and that you'll have everything I couldn't give you.
I am deeply, truly, sorry. :(
Remember the little kid who used to run to the window in the morning to see if it's snowing?
I miss it now.
only if things were easier.
If forgiving someone wouldn't be that hard.
If loneliness wouldn't be so hard to experience.
If admitting my failure wouldn't be so devastating.
suddenly everything is empty.
If it was only THAt easy to disappear.
"I can feel the emptiness inside me fade and disappear
Theres a feeling of contentment now that you are here
I feel satisfied
I belong inside
Your velvet heaven"
I am feeling this discomfort, worrying all the time. I barely sleep, I work a LOT. The sadness and the yearning to see him again kills me.
I think I am being punished for something, whatever it is.
I am Truly, Deeply, SORRY.
and I am losing it. I can't deal with it anymore
Is the worst part in the story. I can't stand thefact that I don't know where he is and worse that I don't know if he's ok or not. Whateverit is, I hopehe is ok and that nothing bad happened to him. but with the time passing, the chances that he will come back are low
I miss playing with him. I miss the his 'smile' and his tail waving and hiting everything around, I miss his smell, I miss when he comes in the morning to see if everything is ok and he puts his head on my bed.
I can't enjoy anything and can not concentrate in anything not knowing what his condition.
