I am just tired. It's been a rough week for many reasons.
The only thing I don't want to go thru right now, is another game.
I miss someone special.
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That's why it is never getting anywhere. I just can't deal with.
I am just tired of running into dead ends.
What a gloomy night it is.
You woke up on your bad side, everything slips out of your hands, can't bring yourself to do anything.
Basically, in these days,whatever can go wrong, goes wrong.
well, this is my week.
"I sure don't mind a change
But I fell on black days
How would I know
That this could be my fate".. -Soundgarden.
Too bad that's the only side I can see,
Wish we could get closer.
That's the view from Kibbutz Misgav Am (where I'll be living in less than a month) over the border with Lebanon.
O> "what's missing in your life right now?"
Me> "I can deal with a lot of things, but I can't give up the serenity, calm, peace, tranquillity".
where am I? I miss the kid I used to be.
it's all just too crazy,
too fast,
too empty.
Exactly one year ago, I've lost my best friend.
One year that I haven't stopped loving him, missing him, dreaming of him for a second.
He was the most faithful creature I have ever met.
And for the few years I got the chance to be with him, I should thankful for the rest of my life.
You can learn a lot. even from a dog.
Wherever you are, I just hope that you're treated as you should. like a king.
<3
it's not a secret I've been terribly scared of the alarms . since the war in the south started, I came up north with an insecurity feeling that something is going to happen. The problem was that I couldn't fall a sleep, every strange sound froze my hear. and still, a week after the alarms in the north, it keeps driving me insane. I barely sleep, every lil noise wakes me up. it takes me hours to fall a sleep. and I am now afraid being alone more than ever before.
I keep the first 20 seconds from the same morning running in my head. (without wanting it of course). and now I am heading a stressful month with all the exams, and I seriously don't know how to handle it.
so I wanted to go to sleep and instead I find myself bitching here. anything but turning the lights off.
How do you keep your memories of something that is no longer with you?
obviously, time is not helping here. as time's passing by, we tend to forget, even the good memories.
and lately I try not to forget all the lil things of Pluto. I terribly miss him. and extremely missing his behavior and even the little things he used to do back then that used to drive me crazy, but now I miss it. and I tend to forget,
too bad he's not here to remind me. even the things I didn't like 
Today it's been exactly 10 monthes. There are not enough words to describe how much I miss him
Take me out.
bring me up.
save me. (from myself).
