It's not like anything I have ever been to before.
You're sleeping in your own bed, it's all warm and cuddly in the middle of the freezing winter here (YES. for me it's freezing). suddenly there's this weird sound, in the next few second you're unable to recognize it. it took me around 5 seconds to understand, this is the going up and down alarm they are talking about.
If I would have wanted to write a script about it, the pause will be here. and the next scene is me running like CRAZY calling to my roommates, with my pyjamas and no shoes on (remember, it's verrryy cold out there) to the door, down the stairs, to a lower floor.
At least I could remember this in that craziness fear I was in, in those 60 seconds or more, of alarm.
Everything I thought I'd do in that moment disappeared. all the things that mattered before, dwarfed in compression to the fear I was experiencing, and the need for running for a shelter. I didn't care who sees me like that or if I took my cell phone or the laptop, which contains my life. (seriously).
the next few moments I stood in the middle of the first floor with some neighbors, I said "stood" but I could barely stand there, I didn't feel my legs, all I felt was my heart beating out like double bass machine. and my legs were shaking, and I started to cry, trying to call my mother from my roommate's cell phone, to let her know that I am somehow "OK", I couldn't call, made like 5 mistakes in the numbers until I dialed the right number.
In the first time in my adult life I experienced this situation, the last time was in the gulf war, but it was too long ago. I can try to understand now a bit of what's like living it for 8 years. you just don't get used to it, no matter what. you can't get used to the sound of these sirens.
My heart is with the residents of the south, fully and truly. and of course, with IDF soldiers as well..
May the force be with you and we'll all know better days.
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